. . Kristina Marie . .
Welcome to the wonderfully-crazy, adventurous life of a 30 something year old, separated – boy mom. Originally from Okotoks, Alberta, now living in Calgary, Alberta, Canada. I like living in Calgary, I live in the perfect spot close to the edge of the city and this is where my life has taken me. Easy and quick to downtown for work and even quicker to leave for the mountains!
Although I am a nervous person by nature, I have encountered many experiences which have allowed me to be challenged and take away the lessons from each experience. As a child, teen, and most of my 20’s, I didn’t know how to deal with a lot of these things. I sat in silence, until I would explode, or I just ran away. Again, this was all areas of life, friends, family, relationships, school, work, sports, opportunities, you name it. Over the last few years, I have grown tired of being that person. Becoming a mother has changed me for the better. Deep down inside of me, there has always been a fire, to challenge, do something different, speak up and fight for me, but fear always took over and I let that win. As I have gotten older, I have found myself not going along with what society thinks we should be doing at certain times in our lives. I have no desire to live that way.
Certain experiences have finally led me to crash and burn, and pick myself back up again. To learn, to challenge these things, people, relationships, opportunities, and mostly myself. I have grown and overcome many things in my life. I now crave movement, adventure, something new, to learn, a challenge. That little fire that I’ve had since I was a little girl, but kept quiet and was so afraid to let lose, because I didn’t understand it, or because people tried to keep me quiet, small, is now out and is spreading!
One thing I will share, is my biggest motivation and inspiration. My son, Nolan. I personally, don’t want to say my child is my sole reason for living and for everything I do, and I really hope I am not contradicting myself when I say this. In my own opinion, I believe that is a LOT to put on a child. When I had him, yes, my entire world changed and I’ve NEVER ever felt a more powerful, honest, real, true love. Having him, and going over all the things I wanted for him and to provide for him, hit me hard. I am sure everyone wants to raise a strong, independent, loving, kind, hardworking child. I wanted so much for him, but how could I show him that, or raise him to be that way if . . . I wasn’t that way. That was a really challenging thing to say to myself and to admit.
My life has taken a lot of twists and turns, ups and downs, but as the saying goes, “you’ve made it through 100% of your worst days”. I am not where I thought I would be and I am okay with that. It took me a while, but I am now ok with that. I am thankful for a beautiful, healthy life, and a beautiful healthy son who I share it with.
I don’t want to just sit around and tell him how things are and what he should and shouldn’t do, I don’t want to just talk at him. I want to lead by example. I want to be an active part in his life, I want to participate and share SO many experiences with him. We have been out and about since he was born and we are not stopping! We have shared so many experiences together so far, so many laughs, and learned so much together. I used to get very overwhelmed with house work and trying to get everything done all the time. One thing my dad told me that someone said to him once was, “your kids are not going to grow up and say – wow, my parents had the cleanest house I’ve ever seen”. That is something I take with me everyday with my boy. He is changing and growing like a weed and everyday counts.
My son is my biggest motivation and inspiration to always keep working on me, to be a better person and to always love life and live it!
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